She’s The Mann…Wait, What?

* INSERT DRAMATIC ENTRANCE*

I’m Back!! That was the longest leave of absence anyone has ever taken in their life! I’ll admit it…I got so incredibly freakin boring that I was even bored with myself! I literally own no more scrapbook paper and my cake pans got moved to the attic…someone please hit me over the head before I mentally reach the age of 99! I’m 21 years old and officially engaged to the love of my life. It has been the craziest roller coaster getting to this point (as some of you may remember..hint..scroll down a post or two). But no worries, I completely intend to fill y’all in on all of the lovely and sometimes horrific details of what you’ve missed!

Quick overview to wet your whistle, while you wait:

  1. My boyfriend proposed
  2. I turned 21
  3. Officially became a college drop out ( for the second time)
  4. Quit my job of 3 years as a hotel clerk
  5. Discovered I love working retail
  6. Learned how to Hula Hoop
  7. Also discovered how long I could go without a home cooked meal.

So are you sad you missed any of those glorious highlights?? I’m in the middle of a craft project, so I simply must run…however, I can’t leave without showing you THE ONE. Although I must warn you..he’s a cutie. So without further adieu, Please welcome, Mr.Mann 🙂

My Fiance

Taking a Break

Hey Everyone!

So I’ve been pretty MIA as of late…life has really been hitting me pretty hard with everything. James and I aren’t together anymore. It was pretty dramatic, and honestly extremely painful. He’d been talking to someone else. But I don’t want to get into the details right now, they’re not really fun to talk about. School is crazy as well, I’m behind in practically everything it feels, and I’ve just really been struggling I guess. I miss talking to everyone on here and I felt like I should make a little post about why I’m taking a break. I just need some me time I think…

Thanks for understanding,

Love, Jessie ❤

 

The Beautiful Blogger Award!!

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I can not tell y’all how amazing it feels to get these blogging awards! DIY2EMC nominated me for the Beautiful Blogger Award, and I have to say it is such and honor to have been nominated by such a beautiful blogger! She’s amazing, and I love browsing through her posts of marvelous finds! Her blog is full of elegant and quirky finds on a budget, as well as so many other goodies!! I also have to add that I think she is one of my biggest supporters on my page, always leaving me little pieces of encouragement! I love that about her! Now it’s time to let y’all in on a little bit about me as a blogger (per the award’s request)

7 facts about me not listed on my about me page: (This is getting harder each time it gets asked!)

  1. I work at the front desk of a Quality Inn & Suites! I win over all the guests (well most all of them) with my awkward sweetness & charm. I say awkward because there is not a conversation that goes by where I don’t stumble or stutter over my words.
  2. I have lived in Columbia, SC my entire life (except for my freshman year of college which was spent in Charlotte, NC); however, I SUCK at giving directions anywhere! To me, everything is just down the street! (Why God made MapQuest…or whoever it was)
  3. I’m 19 and I do not have my drivers license quite yet…that’s sooo embarrassing! Ok, so the thing is, I have terrible anxiety. So no matter how awesome of a driver I am, sitting in the DMV for 3 hours (it never fails) until the instructor gets in the car and tells me to turn right & I just get tunnel vision and forget the simple things…UGH. But anywho, it’s on my list of things to suck up and do.
  4. I’m a pescatarian!! This means that I eat fish as my only meat product. No chicken, beef, pork, lamb, anything like that. I gave up meat completely (even fish) during a Lent season a while ago (It’s a Catholic tradition of fasting) and it just kinda stuck. It’s been about 3 years now, I added the fish back because I became really sick due to something else, and it was just easier to fight one battle at a time. I did try to eat chicken a couple months ago…and I literally couldn’t get it in my mouth, there was like an invisible force in the way of my fork & mouth.
  5. I love retro style glasses! I’ve had to wear glasses since the 1st grade, and my current obsession is getting them kinda cat-eye style? I’m due to get another pair soon & I’m super excited to pick out new frames! Although I really love the ones I have now from Betsy Johnson (I’ll post a picture at the bottom)
  6. One of my major pet-peeves lately is getting things with cupcakes on them. So, I went to school to become a pastry chef, and I guess when you do that you give people the right to give you everything ever manufactured that has to do with cupcakes? I mean, don’t get me wrong, I love cupcakes! But I really really don’t need anything else that’s cupcake themed. However, I do love fingernail polish & shoelaces, in case that threw off anyone’s gift ideas for me.
  7. One of my goals is to learn American Sign Language. It’s my new years resolution to get started on the basics this year. I think it’s a really awesome skill to have, especially in the field of social work (which is my major). I’ve also just always found it extremely fascinating. Anyone have any tips?

Nominate 7 Bloggers & Tell them you nominated them!! (Little compliments on the side are nice too, I really enjoyed mine from DIY2EMC)

  1. Rohan 7 Things: This blogger is truly amazing! He wrote his own book!! (Like what, who does that??) <–This Guy
  2. Miss Marzipan: Her posts always get me thinking about my next project or romp in the kitchen. Not to mention she does everything with such style!
  3. Beautiful Objects: This lovely blogger & super mom just started a pretty cool series of posts on being purposeful, which is something I can definitely learn from myself!
  4. Family Life with the Mom who is All Hart: I love love love reading her posts!! Recently she posted some sports cupcakes that are just too cool! She’s a truly inspirational person 🙂
  5. Homemade Delish: I seriously can’t get enough of her awesome recipes! Honestly, the minutes she posted about her mac& cheese  & Nutella cake in a mug a couple days ago, I think I was sold for life!
  6. Life, Love, & Sugar: I’ve nominated her for an award before, but it’s because she’s truly awesome! Her hashbrown casserole recipe (which I reblogged about) is like food heaven! I literally make it way too much! My family has no complaints though! She’s just pretty awesome with the recipes she comes up with!
  7. My MCM Life: This family…is truly just amazing. I love reading about their updates with their house and beautiful daughter. They’re truly an inspiration!

Y’all should definitely check all these beautiful and amazing bloggers out & give them a quick like & follow! I promise you won’t be disappointed! And thank you so much again to the lovely DIY2EMC!! She’s amazing, and my wordpress reader would be much sadder without her!

New Years Motivation!

Well hello there, Sunshines!!

I have missed you all so dearly! I’ve been slacking on posting and it’s painful because I have so much to report to y’all! James is still deployed and is about as homesick as he can get (not to mention he’s been actually sick). It’s hard not being able to baby him like I want to! I think I have a few ideas up my sleeve though to help him take better care of himself! So I’ll keep you guys updated on his next package which I’m pretty sure will be full of sick people goodies! (I know it doesn’t sound exciting but I promise it’ll be cute!) In the meantime though…I thought I would share with you my tricks for sticking with my New Years resolutions (well…most of them). No one’s perfect right?

This year I really want to get healthy among other things, so the first thing I thought of was making a vision board to organize my thoughts! And although that’s a really awesome and visual idea..I’m such a perfectionist sometimes and I just haven’t been able to really get it to look neat and cute enough without wanting to rearrange everything all the time, which is just distracting from it’s actual purpose! So I was looking up different blogs about fitness and health, and I came across one, which I’m not sure is active anymore, but it was still good reading nonetheless! It’s called Operation Change, and on there she had a goal sheet, where she crossed off the number of times she went to the gym in a week. So I thought…I can do that! It will help me see my progress and keep me motivated! I loved the look that hers had, so I modeled it pretty closely but so far I’m in love! I love getting to cross off a number when I achieve something or get home from the gym!  This is what mine turned out like for my goal of going to the gym 4 times a week! (I’ve already been 3 times this week!)gym goal

I did the same thing with my goal for cooking a healthy dinner for my family twice a week. I changed the colors and the quotes up for each goal so that  it would be relevant to the topic. Like for my cooking dinner one I put a quote about cooking and changed the “Time to get strong” to “Time to eat”. So what do you guys think? Do you have any New Years resolutions you’re already having a hard time keeping? (I can already tell some of mine just aren’t gonna happen!)

 

 

Sunday Storytime: The Honest Truth

Hey guys!

So, pre-blog, I used to be obsessed with Tumblr! Which is a micro-blogging type website. It was kind of like a reflection of the war that was waging itself inside of me. I decided to go back and take a look at it a couple days ago, because I feel like I’ve come so far! I tend to hint towards what happened but I never come out and say it so..here goes…I was sexually assaulted during my freshman year of college. I didn’t tell anyone for about 6 months until I dropped out. This led to me now dealing with a lot of delayed issues which I’m told is PTSD. Looking back at the things I used to post, I realized how angry I was and how by keeping all that anger balled up inside of me that I was making myself my own victim. The people that had caused all that original hurt and self loathing had moved on..they probably were in relationships, getting married, having kids, getting promotions at work. And I was sitting at home…writing on a tumblr about how they had hurt me in the past.

LIGHT-BULB!! No..oh heck no! That’s when I totally turned my life around and decided to just enjoy the little things in life. I know I’m still a work in progress, and I still get angry now and again. But I’m able to look at things and smile…I even have a picture in my head of what my future looks like. I enjoy taking care of the kids that are around me and showering them with love and attention, just thinking about how I’m going to have some of my own some day. It’s an amazing and liberating feeling…just to be vulnerable and happy. Turning emotions that once haunted me and turning them into strengths. I’m vulnerable and that’s beautiful! I’m stubborn and insecure! But those are all things that I love about myself. There’s not a day that goes by that I don’t have a doubt about myself…but all those fears and doubts, those are what make me realize I’m alive!

I just wanted to share my favorite page of my Wreck This Journal that I kept while I was going through the first bits of counseling. The concept is that you destroy the pages as you fill them up. It was a great way for me to get back into crafting. They’re nothing special, but they’re beautiful to me…

This page said to “Stand Here. (wipe your feet, jump up and down)” Sorry of the quality, I blurred it a bit just to cover the words themselves a bit more

The page says to“Stand Here. (wipe your feet, jump up and down)”

The page says to“Stand Here. (wipe your feet, jump up and down)”

Getting Down to Baking Business: Chocolate Chip Cookie Style

WARNING: Late night, Christmas music, alone for Thanksgiving induced rant below! Scroll down for cookies!

So,  I’m staying up late making all kinds of cookies and such for my soldier’s mini- care package. Baking and I have a bit of a love hate relationship; yes, I went to school for baking & pastry, and yes, I loved it…but I don’t know I guess it’s just weird for me now. I was obsessed with opening my own bakery, and getting everything perfect and then all of a sudden my life got turned upside down and I didn’t want anything to do with my life really. But everyone wanted me to just go back to the way I was before so they would always get me to bake and make them stuff when really I was falling apart inside, so it just became like a character people wanted me to play, where it used to be something I was passionate about! When I got out of school I came home and I don’t think I touched a kitchen for about 3 months, then I took on a huge project of making 2 decorated cakes for a coworker of mine and around 3am when I was laying on my kitchen floor, eating icing, I just realized I wasn’t ready yet. It’s been a while now and now that I’ve actually dealt with the actual source of my problems and worked through them with the help of my soldier, I can be happy again and start to enjoy the little things that used to make me smile.The important thing now is: I bake when I want to, not when people want me too, and I keep things simple. There’s no reason for things to be complicated…ever!

Sorry for that little rant, it’s just late and it was on my mind.  But back to the sweet stuff! I made chocolate chip cookies…(So many chocolate chip cookies!), oatmeal raisin cookies, and brownies!  I know it may seem like a lot for one night, but it’s not so bad once you get rolling. I find it better to plan out how I’m going to do things before I get into the kitchen. Maybe that’s my culinary school kid training, but it works for me! I sit down with all my recipes, plan out what I’m going to be making and then figure out the best order to do it. For example, I know my oatmeal cookie dough works best when it has sat in the fridge for a while, so I made that first and sat it in the fridge while I made my chocolate chip cookie dough! As for the brownies..I just had a really hard time picking a recipe to go with. I have so many recipes for brownies that I adore, and I really wanted them to be delicious since they’re for my soldier, but not super complicated. Like I said, I’m a firm believer that simple is best! But for now we’re just gonna stick with the chocolate chip, I’ll write about the rest later.

The Process

Chocolate Chip Cookies (Recipe off the Ghiradelli Chocolate Chip Bag)

  • 2 & 1/4 cup all-purpose flour
  • 1 tsp baking soda
  • 1/2 tsp salt
  • 2 sticks of unsalted butter, softened
  • 3/4 cups white granulated sugar (regular sugar)
  • 3/4 cups brown sugar, packed
  • 2 tsp vanilla extract (invest in a good pure vanilla if you can)
  • 2 eggs
  • 2 cups (1 bag) Ghiradelli  Semi-sweet Chocolate Chips
  • 1 cup chopped walnuts (optional, I left them out)

Ok so, preheat your oven to 375 degrees. Then whisk your flour, baking soda, and salt together and set aside. Cream your butter with your two sugars (beat on medium until creamy), and then add your eggs and your vanilla one at a time. Gradually add your flour mixture and then once that is incorporated, mix in your chocolate chips and walnuts either by hand (I recommend) or on the lowest setting on your mixer. Scoop on to the cookie sheet and bake for 9-11minutes, or until you can see a little golden ring around the edges.

Ok…now here’s my little cookie pet peeve. I love my cookies soft, so I take mine out right at 9 minutes, and they still are soft and don’t look fully baked at all! (just till I can see the little golden ring around the edge). But I let them sit on the cookie sheet for 5 minutes so they set. Trust me…soft cookie goodness! Plus I think it will help these particular cookies not get hard as rocks when they’re being sent oversees to James! Which I’m sure he’s thankful for.

By the way, for those of you who may be sending these overseas, I vacuum sealed them (6 to a quart sized bag) and put them in these little holiday tins from the dollar store! I got a little handheld pump vacuum sealer from ziploc. It’s super affordable, unlike an actual vacuum sealer, and seems to work just as well. Be warned…if you seal them too tight you have just discovered the chocolate chip wafer. Not that I did that or anything…ok…I did…

 

School Schmool

I love Someecards…so relatable to my life!

I didn’t post yesterday!! AHHHH!!! What was that?! Was that a piece of the sky that just fell on my head?? Oh no…just an acorn. (On a side note, my school campus has these trees that drop acorns at the speed of light, and they’re actually really painful when they land on your head!)

So, I stayed up for a large portion of the night, just piddling around through my crafting supplies trying to find something to post about. I found a couple things of buttons…some mason jars,  really tiny plastic containers, huge vinyl letters, and a template for a gift box….I’m just having a rough week, y’all! School is driving me up the wall! I have a cake that has been sitting on my kitchen counter all week that I still haven’t gotten the energy to frost, I had to deal with my stalker, and my family is leaving me for Thanksgiving…and I’ve been having anxiety attacks over all the projects I have coming up at the end of the semester! And on top of that…I just miss my boyfriend, so once I cleaned up all the crafting supplies I had thrown all over my room, I created the ultimate cozy night for myself.

  1. Netflix on my Xbox360 (endless episodes of Dr. Who)
  2. 5 Seasons of Big Bang Theory on DVD just in case Netflix stops working (heaven forbid)
  3. Skype call with boyfriend, who pretends to be a ninja turtle
  4. Microwavable Peach Pie (I know, I know…Went to school for baking & Pastry and I still can’ convince myself to stop eating these things)
  5. Inhaler (anxiety attacks)
  6. Bed with snuggly puppy
  7. Searching through someecards.com
  8. No homework, or so help me god….

So, I apologize for not having anything crafty to report from yesterday…I’ll try and whip something up tonight, I promise! But in the mean time, check out some pictures from my cozy night!